My Secret Sanctuary

Deleted

2009-11-01T01:40:00.000-07:00

Finally. I've deleted Turning Point of Life and One's Promise. That's two less stories to worry about.

The only story I've got to worry about is Letting You Go, which will most likely end in like, 10 chapters or so. After that, I will probably do a couple of oneshots, and then quit FFN. I will continue writing stories in my other FFN account, which all you guys don't know. SUCKERS! Kidding! ^-^

She loves you,
Janikka

Turning Point of Life

2009-10-23T02:32:00.000-07:00

I've really considered deleting Turning Point of Life on FFN. I haven't had any inspiration for it at all. I don't even know why I adopted it in the first place. Not that it's a boring story, because God knows how many people likes that story. But, it's just that... I don't know how to continue it. You get me?

But yeah. I'm really really tempted to delete TPOL, because if I do, then that's a plus for me because my work would lessen. I have a huge exam in 11 days, and I have to study like crazy. So yep!

I have another secret account. TAA-DAA! Yes. I do. I won't tell you the penname because duhh! It's a secret account!

My brain is empty right now. I can hardly form words in my head. But there you go. I'm still able to.

I gotta say goodbye now. I'm babbling. Being random again.

She loves you,
Janikka.

I'm sick of being the nice one

2009-10-19T23:13:00.000-07:00

That's right! I am!

Since like, how many months ago, I've had a.... misunderstanding with an internet friend. I'm not going to name her, though those who knows me might know. Oh shoot. I just gave away her gender.

But anyway! We had a one-sided fight. She started ignoring me, right? I don't have a clue on what I did wrong. I tried how many ways to talk to her, but she still ignored me. On MSN, she flippin' blocked me. A lot of my internet friends are her friends as well, so once, when we had a huge convo, she was 'offline' to me. At first, I thought she was just 'appear offline', but when I asked a friend whether she was online to them, they said that she was online. So I came to a conclusion that she blocked me. Or deleted me. Either way, I was hurt. I didn't even know what I did to her, and now she's being mean to me? I tried messaging her in Facebook, saying that even though I don't know what I did, I was sorry. I told her to forgive me and stuff, but what did I get in return? That's right! She deleted me in Facebook as well! I've been asking my friends to ask her what I did wrong, because if I just knew what I did, then maybe I'd accept that our friendship was over. But I don't know. To this date, I'm still wondering why she started ignoring me. God. I hope she reads this.

Seriously. I've been trying, trying to talk to her in numerous ways. For months, I've been hoping that we would be back to being friends again. In our group convos with our mutual friends, I've been trying to talk to her, but she keeps on ignoring me! I tried talking to her by reviewing her fics. I have! When she first review-replied, I was so happy, I couldn't contain my happiness. I'm serious, I was at the edge of my seat, giggling like an idiot. I thought that finally, we would be back to being friends again. That finally, our mutual friends wouldn't be worried about us not being friends anymore. That finally, this worry over fighting with her would be over. But I thought wrong. Whenever she review-replies, it always seems like she's being forced to do it, so I don't even bother to PM her back, because I'd be wasting my time. And don't you dare tell me that I should've PM'ed her, because I know that she won't reply. I guarantee you she won't reply. She hates me that much.

So the hope of being friends with her was shattered once again. In my FFN profile, I included her in my friend's list, saying that 'I still consider her my friend', because back then, i did consider her as my friend. But now?

I'm tired.

I'm tired of always being the nice one, always having to make peace on the fights that I didn't even start. I'm tired of always having to say sorry when I haven't done anything wrong. I'm tired. I'm just tired. I deleted her in my friend's list in my FFN profile. Every time I see her penname or even her name in FFN, I always have to cringe. She had that effect on me. I used to really like her as my friend. But now I realized what her personality truly is. You know what? I don't even care if I'm not her friend anymore. I'm done. I've done my part on trying to make this friendship work. I'm DONE trying to apologize. Because it seems like every time I apologize, it falls on deaf ears. Or, in this case, it falls on... a blind eye? LOL.

But yeah. If you're reading this, xxxxx, I don't want you to feel bad. Maybe I have done something terribly wrong, and you just suddenly wanted to be a bitch to me. Or, maybe, you just plainly hated me, or you found me annoying. I don't know. But either way, I consider our friendship as if it never even took place. No, actually, I can't pretend that it didn't, because that would always be a scar to me. That would always hurt every time I think about it. That would most likely be a trauma to me. I don't know. Maybe I'm overreacting. But heck, if you would have just told me what I did wrong, then maybe I'd have left you alone. Not hassle you on forgiving me, which most likely made you hate me more.

Guys, I'm not asking for pity here. God, that's the last thing I want. I just want to share my thoughts. That's what a blog is for, right? :))

Have a good day, everyone! And sorry about rambling on you like that. It's selfish, I know.

She loves you,

Janikka.

My type in a guy

2009-10-17T01:29:00.001-07:00

This might be a weird subject to talk about, but I just want to put it out there.

Here's a list of things that I like in a guy's attitude:

Smart, but not super smart. Just smart enough to know that a pie is equals 3.14.
Kind. Or nice. It's the same thing!
Humble.
Sweet.
Sense of humour.
And last but not least, he has to be a Christian.

Now here's a list on what I like about a guy's appearance:

Glasses. Sometimes, they just look plain hot in a guy.
Earrings. Oh, that just completes the 'bad boy' look!
A smile that could light up a whole town. :)
Great sense of fashion.
Not too skinny and not that fat. :)
Plays basketball. :))

That's a list of my possible dream guy. It's quite impossible to find a guy that fits all the requirement, but hey, no one will get hurt if I keep on looking, right? Well, I hope no one will get hurt if I keep on looking.

But anyway! I just want to put it out there that there's a list of things that I want to be in a guy's attitude and appearance. It's asking a lot, I know. I'm very demanding, I know. :)

PS. My friend, sakuraheartz, has this hater. Her hater sent her a hate mail ((Go to www(dot)sakuraheartz(dot)blogspot(dot)com to know more. It's under May2009, alright?)), and the ironic thing is, her hater have her on their favorite author's list. I mean, she's the only author that's there. Ain't that kinda funny? But anyway, to TG-Alice14, well, you have a very messed up mind, gurl. What kind of person goes around, telling authors that they suck, and then putting them on their favorite authors? Seriously. Who?

She loves you,

Janikka.

New Zealanders hates Aussies

2009-10-16T23:48:00.000-07:00

Yuh-huh! That's right! We do hate Aussies, for some reason. An example of how we express our hatred?

Well, when I was in French class, the teacher were like, telling us how to say our nationality, right? So like, she said,

"Okay. French. How to say French is Françoise for girls, but François for boys. For feminine, you put 'e' at the end, and blah blah blah."

Then she's like, "Americans? You guys want me to tell you how to say 'American' in French?"

And even though we didn't have any American in our class, we were just like, "Yeah yeah. Put that up."

((I don't have my French book with me, and I forgot how to say 'American' in French, so like, I'm not even gonna try guessing.))

So the teacher said how to say it in French. And yeah, we wrote it down in our books. And then the teacher was like,

"You guys want me to put how to say 'Australian' in French?"

And we were all like,

"Hell no!! We don't have any Aussies in here!" ((emphasis on 'Aussies'.))

The teacher just laughed but she told us how to say it in French anyway.

"Australienne for girls, and Australien for guys. In some cases, for masculine, you have to take away the 'n' and 'e'."

But yeah, we were all like, "But we don't have any Aussies here!!"

Haha. We hate Australians. We even have a joke book about how Australians are stupid. The funny part? My sister's boyfriend is Australian. LOL!

She loves you,

Janikka.

Sneak peek -- "10 Interesting Facts"

2009-10-13T22:44:00.000-07:00

This is a sneak peek on my soon-to-be-newest story, "10 Interesting Facts".

---

"My favorite flower is water lily."

"..."

"Don't laugh!"

"I'm not laughing!"

"Yes you are! I can see your face! It looks like you're constipated!"

---

I will post the story somewhere next next week. Hopefully.

She loves you,

Janikka

Done and dusted

2009-10-10T13:29:00.000-07:00

I'm thinking of a new story to post in FFN.

I've done the brainstorming, and all that's left to do is get off my lazy bum and write it. I'm practically done, since the brainstorm is practically the whole story. I just need to connect it all up. But anyway, it's called, "10 Interesting Facts". I won't give away any spoilers. Except for this: the story will start in a club.

Not much of a give away, is it? Exactly.

But anyway, if you author alerted me on FFN, then I think you're gonna get a notification about teh-crazeh-one posting a new story. It's a oneshot, by the way. :)

Hope you'll like it!

I'm still alive!!

She loves you,

Janikka

I am alive!

2009-10-08T21:36:00.000-07:00

Just to tell you guys, that I am still working on my fics, even though it seems like I'm dead, given that I haven't updated any huge fics lately. But I am working on my fics. One word at a time. No, just kidding.

Lately I've been really busy and distracted. Even though it's the holidays, I know, but I'm just... somewhat, busier than schooldays. I don't know why, but I am. And my mind is all over the place. Everyday, I think of a new plot but I can't be bothered to write it on paper. It's a curse, I tell you! My mind keeps on giving me great, original ideas, but my body won't obey me to get a pen and paper. What's up with that?

But anyway, I'm just here to tell you that I am working on my ridiculously overdue fics.

She loves you,

Janikka

Plots are always hard to express on paper

2009-10-06T04:07:00.001-07:00

What I hate about coming up with ideas is that I never get to put it in words.

For example, my idea is to have Natsume as a farmer (this is supposed to be my story for Hilaire's contest) and Mikan suddenly gets stranded in front of his farm because her gas ran out. So she asks Natsume for help. Problem is, Mikan is an English-speaking girl, who just went to Japan for a vacation. And since Natsume didn't speak to her when she asked if he would help her, she assumed that he doesn't speak English. This amuses Natsume, so he played along. He pretended to not understand her, when in truth, he can fluently speak English, since he spent 8 years studying in America.

Somehow (I haven't thought of how yet), they worked out a deal that Mikan would stay in his farmhouse until help would come (btw, Natsume's farm is like, way far out of the main highway, so not that many cars pass through, and Mikan forgot her phone at home. How ironic).

Mikan stays at Natsume's house, without speaking one word, since it would be no use because Natsume wouldn't understand it. Natsume didn't speak either, since he wanted her to think that he didn't understand her.

Soon, Mikan falls in love with Natsume, and gives an effort on learning Japanese, so that she could communicate with him. Every now and then, Natsume would catch her holding an 'English-Japanese dictionary'. Soon, Mikan would speak little Japanese to Natsume. Words like, "Goodnight, Goodmorning, thank you, no, yes and how are you."

After a while (like, chapter 5 of the story, I guess), someone finally showed up in the farm, saying that they're there to rescue Mikan.

Mikan didn't want to go, since she has fallen in love with the raven-haired boy, but since she wasn't sure what he felt towards her, she went home, thinking that Natsume doesn't have any feelings towards her whatsoever.

Gahh! I don't know. That's the plot so far, but it'll be a hard story to write. I mean, things like,

"Hi. I'm Mikan, sorry. I ran out of gas and I was wondering if you would help me." Mikan said in English.

Yeah. Those 'she said in English/Japanese' stuff is kinda annoying.

Sigh.

Anyway! My point of this post is....

is....

To tell you that plots are hard to write!!

No. Actually, that's not my point at all.

I forgot what my point is, actually. It escaped my mind when I was writing out the plot. Unfair.

Sigh.

Yeah. I'm going to say goodbye for now.

She loves you,

Janikka

Friendster

2009-10-03T05:48:00.001-07:00

Okay. So earlier this day, I logged in to my Friendster account. I had three comments. One of them was this guy (my childhood friend) and he's all like,

"grabhe man pics mo

nakakainlab

hahaha

mustah man jan?

sabi ni dustin crx ka na nya

hahah

take care"

Haha. For translation, here it is (it's not exact, since I don't know how to translate it):

"You're pics are so lovely

It's worth being in love for

hahaha

how are you there?

Dustin said that you're already his crush

hahah

take care"

Ain't that just weird? It's also flattering. I mean, a guy saying those things? Who ain't gonna be flattered? By the way, I haven't seen or talked to that guy in 3 and a half years. :3

Oh and, Dustin is this guy who suddenly added me in Friendster, and is apparently a friend of the guy who gave me the comment. :))

A couple of guys asked me for my number in Friendster too. Bwahahaha! That's just weird!

Bye bye for now!

She loves you,

Janikka

Greetings

2009-10-03T03:17:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!

You being here must mean that you're bored. Am I right? Yes. Of course I am! I'm always right! Hahaha. Just kidding.

For those who knows me, you might know that my name is Janica. For those of you who doesn't know me, well, the name's Janica.

Maybe you're here because you clicked 'homepage' on my profile in fanfiction.net. Well, as you might know, my penname there is teh-crazeh-one. Why I chose that penname, is simply because I am crazy. Not in a 'mental-hospital' kinda crazy, but crazy in a way that I laugh at everything I see. You can ask my real life friends for reference. They'd all say I'm crazy - to the bone.

Anyway, I've finally stopped being lazy ((for now)) and created this blog. It's been a long, long time since I've wanted to create this blog, but every time I think of making one, my lazy ass gets in the way! But now, since I'm so bored, I thought of making a blog for real. And here I am! Horahh!

In this blog, I will post my life experiences, my ideas for stories, and my updates. I hope that I won't bore you. I'm trying to make this blog as interesting as I can, thank you very much!

For now, I will bid farewell.

She loves you,

Janikka